I moved.
I didn't really tell anyone about it.
I don't do much where I live now.
But here is my address.
Feel free to visit.

A shout into a canyon is lost upon the cave dweller too deep.
A closed mind, your mind, it is too liberal,
that is to say
you are so liberal that you are closed minded.
A contradiction? to the simple.
Analyze it. aren't you liberal?

Too young to be the things you do, yet too old to do them.
So much is waiting, and you know it;
Love
Travel
Education
experiences
                   you haven't yet had

So opened minded. So much to do. So long as you are never again
a slave
an addict
a shadow
a person
              that isn't living

Yet are you now?
Why are you so afraid : too ask the right questions
 What if you realized the lack of a soul you are now
  What if things again must change.
You are strong,
but how strong?

You can clear the tangled brush
that immediately restricts your movement.
But are you strong enough to leave the forest?
Are you strong enough to move? sit
let that vegetation coil around your limbs once more
and repeat ; pain. regret. experiences. "living".
Are you strong enough to climb to the vantage point,
are you strong enough to ask the hard questions.

WHY DOES IT HURT YOU TO BEGIN TO PONDER WHAT IS REAL
WHY MUST YOU CHANGE AND GROW AND THEN SIT
and stagnate. a regression derived from false progression. seedling grown and grown tall and sickly.

you may be a one sided watch tower. and your observation deck long outstretched. you can see and sound the alarm and observe and warn.
Yet you cannot see the TNT placed at your tower's base.

So much is waiting, and you know it;
Love
Travel
Education
experiences
                   you haven't yet had
I wish you luck with the aforementioned list,
because I foresee it as difficult
as you stay in the forest
coil. stagnate. pain. vain repetition.

Are you strong enough?

-Collin White

 

And all of the sudden; birth;

Strawberry Skies

Coma Cat

Paris (aeroplane)

What else is there? (trentemoller)

The Stone is yet Unbroken

a venomous soul
 yet gone and milked.
Is mountain wildflower growing
 between the hostile clay earth and
 red moss stone

She, a crutch and a boxer
 an iceberg in a draining pool
    has intrigued my soul
Though it be between His death
& His rising; within, you have
  sparked the desire to live
          anew.

-Collin White

Welcome to Earth // It's a pretty cool planet.

Liushidan Mountain - louisch

We Stopped Dreaming

Must Have. Must Love.

Quickey

SHOOOWEE

It's been busy fer me.

Sorry to leave y'all in the dark; I did make my University decision and I will be attending BYU Provo starting this fall. Right now I am working on locating scholarships, so if any of y'all have any tips on money for school please let me know (comment box always works).  On the 7th I can register for housing which is rad. I plan on rooming with a stranger.  It's easy for me to remember housing on the 7th because I get paid on the seventh.  Ah yeah boy.  I don't know if it's public knowledge on the interwebs but I am working again and I am working at Infinite Cycles in Lehi and it is kickin'. Plus I am making bank yet unfortunately not enough bank, evidenced by the fact that I have to save for college thus I don't have money for:

 

But I did just buy:

 and boy am I psyched for it to get here. 

Just like pay-day.

Let us see, what else have I been up to?

Well two nights ago was the new best night ever of my life thus far.  Why? Oh, just a little thing like an EDP house party in some tiny place off Ol' Geneva road. Man it was amazing. Absolutely amazing. All the Dj's blew my mind this time.  My friend Zac Duvall A.K.A Kudo did an amazing hip-hop glitch set. As soon as he posts it I will link it because it was amazing. 

Also I got Borderlands for my 360 and I am loving it.

I finished 1984 again. I think it's my third? I love that book.

Can anyone else not wait for warm weather? I mean girl please I am talkin' 'bout baggy cargo shorts and no collar button ups and my road bike and my LBL LDP 2 and GRADUATING AND BEING DONE WITH HIGH-SCHOOL FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and being one step closer to college and living on my own. And ever closer to my mission.  Life just has so many exciting things in store for me.

Things are looking up.

-Collin

p.s. does anyone have any tips for getting better at chess? because my friends keep handing my butt to me when we play. 

Just waiting for the age when girls find wisdom-seeking men wildly attractive.

The 18th of February

Well I guess it's a good problem to have. 

I have been accepted to both BYU Provo and BYU Idaho.  And I know before my LDS mission I want to go to either one of these schools.  Before I thought I really wanted to go to Idaho, after touring Rexburg the campus that is; and secretly I had this notion in the back of my mind that I kind of knew Provo would accept me, but I pushed it away and just focused on Idaho.   I didn't think I would care that much if I got the opportunity to go to Provo; however last night, before going back upstairs to finish "Air Rage" on G4's Movies That Don't Suck with Beluga, I checked my email and saw CES contacted me about admissions and immediately I got those danged "stomach-butterflies".  I was internally excited to see the acceptance and from then didn't think much of it, I just finished my movie, watched attack of the show, read 1984 and listened to Coast to Coast with George Noory until nearly 2 A.M. when I fell asleep.  

Now, I am sitting in front of the computer, listening to chiptune in an effort to de-stress.  I don't understand it but this morning has become entirely too stressful out of no-where.  I know I don't have to decide today, but I am some what alarmed at my sudden affinity for Provo and both want me to start in the fall, so I don't have a lot of time.  I thought Idaho was the one! But Idaho has such a negative stigma as the school for kids who can't get into Provo. Yet look at me, I am qualified for both, and getting to know Idaho made me really excited to go there. But it is still Idaho: Proud land of nothing of consequence!  What puts Idaho on the map? Potatoes, a weird edible tuber of a cultivated plant, Solanum tuberosum,  of the nightshade family. Not to mention Ireland already called potato-related fame!  I mean Utah doesn't have a lot going for it either, but at least there is a major city and good skiing and scenery.  Both places are obscenely cold in winter.  And Provo is a pretty fun town, decently culturally diverse and a good music scene.  People have told me, "congrats! I think you should go to Provo, they need more people like you down there" and I reply with a thanks, but what is that supposed to mean? All I can think of is perhaps way back when Provo was prolly a lame ol' town like Rexburg, just waiting for great things to be born of it. And since then they have. It seems every year another great person or idea or group emerges with Provo roots.  Where is Idaho's? maybe I have something I can contribute to either.  I can say definitively that I want to make a name for myself.  I want have my name reek of well earned pride and give my family something to be proud of, and wherever I go I want to represent it with the best. Regardless of Provo or Rexburg, if I attend, and the school treats me right, my efforts will surge to the brim of the potential of my being.  

Maybe that's the thing.  Maybe I have a lot of praying to do and a lot of meditation.  Because I need to make the right choice now to make the best I can of tomorrow. I have more than just me counting on me, I have my God, my family, future wife, my ancestors and my posterity. That's why this Saturday the 18th in February of 2012 is so stressful. And this is why I love writing, it organically organizes my thoughts and the more I do it, the more beautiful it becomes.

The chiptune is starting to take effect now, as I listen to Found by Saskrotch.  I am calm again.  All I need to do is take it slow yet still intelligently.  If I am faithful and allow wisdom to pass through me I will be okay.

-Collin